Wwe are in the process of moving house so Wwe do not have any internet. sorry if you miss Uus!!
i will update at school as soon as i get time
love you all!

i am very much in love with The Italian.

lately this has shown itself in a particular kind of honesty, melting into vulnerability. when you can adore someone with your whole self, there will be the cracks in your marble face that eventually, learn to speak. this has not been the case our entire relationship, especially for myself. i HATE being made a fool...and so how much of myself have i twisted into some other person? what room have i not shown him in effort to preserve my own silly image of myself?

and i am having these kinds of experiences with Him, because i am also practicing honesty with Him. so yes, i am enduring His wrath and His anger at times but then, i hear Him talk back to me and in His kindness i am repentant and crying as i smile.

accomplish HIS DESIRE is the words i hear in my mind always....

i felt poetic…

FIRST NAME?
amy

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
No, i was really little at birth so they had to give me a small name to match.

WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
watching Ghost with karisa on Sunday. my god.

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
sometimes

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH MEAT?
honey ham

KIDS?
yes i have 1 who is my world and sunshine.

IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
yes why not.

DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL?
yes this one

DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
it would be a death wish!

DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
no

WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
i dont think so

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CEREAL?
saltana bran

DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
yes

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
No.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM?
Capuccino Chocolate Chunk.

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
kindness.

RED OR PINK?
red

WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
i always say the wrong thing

ANY BROTHERS OR SISTERS?
1 sister, 1 brother.

DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
if they want too

WHAT COLOUR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
light blue skirt, my slippers.

THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
toasted cheese sandwich

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
wolfmother, joker and the theif

IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
light green

FAVOURITE SMELLS?
vanilla and cinnamon

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Master.

DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
Yes heaps she is my sister!

FAVOURITE DRINK?
diet motha effin coke

FAVOURITE SPORT TO WATCH
football

HAIR COLOUR?
Dark Brown/ Black

EYE COLOUR?
Green / blue depending on the light

DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
No

FAVOURITE FOOD?
italian

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING
happy

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Ghost

WHAT COLOUR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
White

SUMMER OR WINTER?
summer

HUGS OR KISSES?
hugs

FAVOURITE DESSERT?
Cheesecake

MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Not sure

LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
matt

WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
big, very boring medical texts

WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
a harley

WHAT DID YOU WATCH LAST ON TV LAST NIGHT?
nothing

FAVOURITE SOUNDS?
my baby laughing

ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Beatles

THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
France or Italy

DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
don’t think so, maybe you should ask Master lol

WHEN WERE YOU BORN?
March, 1981

WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Clare, SA

Current Mood: bored

Wwe have had a wonderful weekend with sarah visiting. we went out for dinner on friday night and on saturday night everyone met up at a club for a few drinks with her. i took her out and about most of friday and saturday and today she went home so its back to "normal" for us now.
i have just tried a new recipe for spaghetti for dinner, its a more rustic recipe than most and it needs to be cooked for 2 hours at least. it has mushroom, capsicum, garlic, crushed tomato, basil etc in it like normal but instead of mince meat you use small pieces of steak. i hope the Italian likes it!
well i just wanted to do a quick update before He gets home. i hope everyone had a wonderful weekend.

Current Mood: busy

i am very excited because my sister is arriving for 4 days tomorrow! Wwe have so much planned for her visit and i have even done a little "gift" bag up for her that is waiting on the spare bed. she has her own towels, soap, shampoo and even tweezers. i went to the city and got some guide books to perth for her too. she should be impressed.
today i went to visit Mrs L and we played cards. she has taught taylor and i how to play canasta and i am addicted..today i won twice and Mrs L won once. we also made calzone for Master and He was very happy with it.
tomorrow i am picking sarah up at 1240 from the airport then its over to Mrs L's again for a late lunch. Master wont be home until later in the evening so we get to spend a little alone "sister bonding" time. sarah is really excited because she hasnt seen little j in quiet some time and i am looking forward to her company.
well its off to chat on msn for awhile for me because Master wont be home for a while and some of the girls are online.

Current Mood: excited

long time and no post so i thought i should update.
Master gave me permission and a budget to renovate the house a little. i decided floor boards where a good idea considering Wwe have a 1 year old running around the place. Wwe now have a beautiful looking wooden floor thanks to floating floor boards. it is much easier to keep clean and now, apart from the bedrooms, i dont need to vacuum so much!
i also ordered some curtains to be made and they are arriving on thursday and a new back decking will be made next month. the house is looking so good its a pleasure to keep it clean and nice.
Wwe are hoping to increase the value in order to sell it next year and build a house together. i am really looking forward to this.
Master has been busy with His new job but He has organised Himself enough to make sure He is home for dinner each night. little J is rambling on more and more in his own language but sometimes comes out with something so clear everyone knows what he said. He now tells the dog "no" and asks to go out by grabbing his nappy bag and heading for door waving "ta ta" to everyone.
karisa is coming over today for lunch so i am making buscetta (??) how mrs L taught me.
i hope everyone is well and i will catch up soon.

Current Mood: content

Phil says:
we dont kiss enough
amy says:
kisses Him
Phil says:
what am I, your brother?
Phil says:
we'll work on that
amy says:
PASHES Him
Phil says:
sighs

Current Mood: flirty

Master and i had a wonderful time in Italy. Wwe stayed in a beautiful hotel in Palermo, Sicily. i spent most of my time down by the pool in the lovely warmth while the Italian met with various people that are involved in His work. i missed little j so much though and had a little cry a few times. it would have been great to have taken him with us.
Wwe are back home and into the old routine now. Wwe had Master's boys over the weekend and took them out shopping saturday because they needed some things. little j was returned to me on sunday and i havent been able to stop kissing and cuddling him. he is asleep now and when he wakes up i might take him to karisa's house.
Master has told me i can spend some money on Oour house if i want too. i havent decided yet but i thought perhaps some floorboards through the house instead of carpet would be nice. i ordered some pamphlets from a place that does floating floor boards this morning and once ive had a look i might get a quote. other than that i would like to put new curtains up and maybe some of those nice wooden blinds.
i hope everyone else is well and i will most likely catch up soon.

Current Mood: cheerful

just when i thought this was going to be the perfect holiday at the perfect time of year with the perfect company daniel goes and spoils it all.
he called us friday saying that he had told his lawyer about our trip to sicily and that i am not allowed to take little j out of the country without his permission. i asked him, nicely, if i could please take joshie with us and he said no! i cried and cried....in fact im still crying and i really should stop because Master looks like His about to murder someone. i just cant help it!
daniel flew over yesterday and came to collect joshie at lunchtime today. he is taking him to melbourne to see his grandparents while we are away. i am so SO dissapointed because i was really looking forward to spending the week in sicily with my baby and my Man.
Master said to look on the bright side and see it as a relaxing week now that i have no baby to take care of..and thats true i know, i just cant help missing my little man.
sighs
well i guess i shall see you all in a week. xoxo

Current Mood: crushed

my god what a weekend! i am so tired today after Tony and karisa's "get together" saturday night that i am having a hard time focusing on this. Master looked gorgeous as usual and recieved many compliments on the fact that He has hair on His head now. He has been working out, shaving his facial hair and growing back His head hair in preperation for His upcoming 'promotion'. He decided looking very italian was the way to go. i think He looks fabulous.
karisa got very drunk and talked my ear off for hours (just kidding kar) and Tony was as always good fun. they had a fire out the back yard which kept everyone cosy and Wwe didnt leave until the sun was coming up sunday morning. The Italian woke up early feeling a bit seedy but thankfully my breakfast perked Him up. right now He has gone to His parents so i thought i would update.
other, more important news is i recieved my score from the UMAT today and yes i am able to apply for med entry. im not sure what exactly i want to do but as Master says there is no pressure. i know i can do it now which is really what it was all about. being a doctor is something i consider and a preffession worthy of a few years more in uni but i am thinking i would like to find a job soon as a director in a nursing home so i have been paying attention to the paper and keeping my ear to the ground. being a director of nursing is my real passion and i feel like i can make a better contribution to the health care industry as such. decisions decisions.
joshua is saying so many words now, like lilly (his name for Phil lol), please, thankyou, yes and no. he is the cutest baby and even Master says he has a special something. i will post some pictures soon on Masters LJ.
i hope everyone is well and happy and i will try catch up soon.

10 Favorites...
Favorite Color: does anyone have a favorite color anymore? when i was little, it was purple.
Favorite Food: food is a central part of my life, so let me narrow this down. favorite food genre: italian, favorite food of all time: chocolate.
Favorite Band: hard to say, but since my too-cool friend kar mentioned them today, i'll go with the End of Fashion.
Favorite Movie: 'lost in translation' has sentimental value.
Favorite Sport: football. nothing but heartache for me this year!
Favorite Season: spring. i am ready for the season of blossoms, strappy shoes and pretty flowers. and dresses.
Favorite Day Of the Week: friday
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: cappuccino chunky chocolate
Favorite Time of Day: the time when the Italian is home. swoons

9 Currents...
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Taste: CCs
Current Clothes: grey skirt, white top, purple hoodie cos I got cold, and a ponytail.. with earrings and cute shoes for good measure.
Current Computer Background: a meadow. i think it's supposed to be soothing. it's not working.
Current Finger/Toenail Color: fingers are unpainted, toes are red
Current Time: 11:15 am
Current Surroundings: His chair, desk, and some very heavy and uninteresting medical books (mine).
Current Annoyance(s): my dog barking.
Current Thought: why did i do this again?

8 Firsts...
First Best Friend: katie mclaughlin
First Love: trent england (kindergarten.. early start.)
First Screen Name: amyhu (so creative, thanks dad.)
First Pet: harry (yorkie)
First Crush: some boy from my dance school, pretty sure he's gay.
First Music: i'm not sure, but chances are it was the who or stevie wonder.
First Car: 81 COMMODORE SS

7 Last...
Last Cigarette: awhile ago, they make me sick
Last Drink: diet coke
Last Car Ride: coming back home from the Italians parents last night
Last Text Message: yesterday, from the Italian, verifying the time He arrives home
Last Movie Seen: thomas crowne affair
Last Phone call: the Italian
Last CD Played: the one taylor made me

6 Have You Ever...
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: yes
Have You Ever Broken the Law: yes
Have You Ever Been Arrested: no
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: no
Have You Ever Been on TV: yes
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: yes

5 Things...
You're Wearing: we soooo already covered this.
You Did Last Night: ate dinner, watched tv, went to bed with Him
You Can Hear Right Now: dog barking, music, my typing.
You Can't Live Without: the Italian, little j, sheila ice cream, cable tv, and chocolate.

4 Places You've Been To.. my best adventures were in paris, london, cairns, and adelaide.

3 People You Can Tell Anything To... the Italian, karisa, marissa

2 Choices...
1. Black or White: white
2. Hot or Cold: hot

1 Person You'd Do Anything For: mr. Italian (and little J, equal)

Current Mood: geeky

survey courtesy of the fabulous miss sarah.

1. What is the geekiest part of your music collection? to the cool kids, probably all of the no doubt cds. but really, gwen stefani is amazing. to everyone else, probably all of the soundtracks to musicals.

2. What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? chips and dip or almonds.

3. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? steel magnolias. my god.

4. If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done? Boobs (haha), but no.

5. Do you have a completely irrational fear? i'm really scared of being by myself at night, but i guess that isn't altogether irrational.

6. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moments? the excessive talking.

7. Are you a pyromaniac? nope

8. Do you have too many love interests? just the One.

9. Do you know anyone famous? well.. no.

10. Describe your bed: not that exciting, but we have really nice pillow roll things.

11. Spontanious or Planned? a little of both is healthy.

12. Who would play you in a movie? according to some lately, ashlee simpson, but i'm pretending they'd bring back audrey hepburn.

13. Do you know how to play poker? not at all.

14. What do you carry with you at all times? my phone, my keys, and my lip gloss.

15. What do you miss most about being a kid? recess, no responsibilities, and i think i actually used to read more..

16. Are you happy with your given name? no. could there be a more cliche 80s name than mine?

17. How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year? not much living with a rl Master has made me see the light.

18. What color is your bedroom? 3 parts dark brown, 1 part white, 0 part my choice.

19. What was the last song you were listening to? Sweetest goodbye – maroon 5

20. Have you ever been in a play? yes, i was the star of the show lots of times throughout my younger years, which puzzles me because of how jittery i am in front of people now.

21. Have you ever been in love? so wonderful!!

22. Do you talk a lot? my god, all the time. (see: .6)

23. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself? more and more with His help.

24. Do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? do we have that in perth?

25. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? yes

26. Do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends? the Master, but friends are making a comeback

27. What is your ideal marriage location? i think one of the pretty churches in perth, reception at the country club. once upon a time i would have said my beautiful old church in clare, reception at a winery. time will tell!

28. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play? the piano.

29. Favorite fabric? tweed! i'm so trendy.

30. Something you love and hate? love sauce, hate tomatoes.

31. What kind of bedding do you use? 300 count egyptian….just kidding. Not too fussed.

32. Do you tell your friends about your sex life? I try not too but one friend insists on gory details!

33. What's the one language you want to learn? italian

34. How do you eat an apple? sliced

35. What do you order at a bar? vodka and rasberry or a diet coke.

36. Have you ever pierced your body parts? just the ears.

37. Do you have tattoos? not yet

38. You drive a stick? i wish.

where did 39 go?

40. What's one trait you hate in a person? fakeness. i think that's a trait.

41. What kind of watch do you wear? usually i don't

42. Most frivolous purchase? louis vuitton, france, 2004. it was a souvenir!!

43. Do you consider yourself materialistic? less and less the older (and more owned) i get.

44. What do you cook the best? chocolate chip cookies.

45. Favorite writing instrument? black pens

46. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in? blend in.

47. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? some people say i look a little like a 14 year old boy as is, so let's say no.

48. What's one car you will never buy? a big huge rodeo or something.

49. What kind of books do you like to read? classic works, political things, and books that my smart friends recommend.

50. If you won the lottery, what would you do? pay off my credit card, my bills, put a chunk in savings, invest, and take a whole lot of people on a well-deserved vacation.

51. Burial or cremation? cremation

52. How many online journals do you read regularly? several! creepy!

53. What's one thing you're a loser at? partying. alcohol makes me sleepy.

54. If you don't like a person, how do you show it? i don't play with them anymore.

55. Do you cry in front of your friends? more my Master than anyone else, but yes.

56. What kind of first impression do you think you give to people? i try to seem nice, in nightime social settings people seem to think i'm either snotty or shy.

Current Mood: amused

You know how you see a sign saying "Don't touch" and suddenly you're riddled with an overwhelming urge to pick up the item in question, snuggle it into your breast and leave a million fingerprints over it. Such is life i think, because we find ourselves always drawn to that which we can't have. In any situation. Food, Clothing, People, Places...you name it and i want it!

right now what i want is Him because He is doing weights just outside of the window near where i am sitting.......and OH He looks so fine....

dammit

Current Mood: flirty

HAHA!
cleaning out the lap top and look what i found!


amy says:
gasps! i got a kiss! yay
Phil says:
kissing is better than high-fiving
amy says:
it is
Phil says:
unless Italy just beat AUST in soccer
Phil says:
then high-five is best
amy says:
lol!
amy says:
i would have to be going for australia
Phil says:
I know, thats why youre invited
Phil says:
we need someone to cheer the other side
amy says:
lmao id be sitting among all of Your family wearing green and gold all by myself
Phil says:
I want to tell you something
amy says:
yes
amy says:
?
amy says:
is it bad?
Phil says:
there is something about you....... I'm not sure what it is..... we spoke of it and I was light about it because I figured it was explainable and a flash of mirrors
Phil says:
I want to find out what it is
amy says:
do you mean something good about me or something bad?
Phil says:
something good
amy says:
there is something about You too Phil, im sure of it
Phil says:
there is a lot of work to do tho
amy says:
i will email You more if You like
amy says:
is this the email You use?
Phil says:
I would.......... i use filthy_phil@yahoo.com
Phil says:
how much do you know about being a sub?
amy says:
i know what ive read and i know what TBM taught me
amy says:
i know its me
Phil says:
I am thinking of taking you under consideration
amy says:
i would like that
Phil says:
we would start online........ we learn about each other...... I would train you....... but you are mine
Phil says:
I , yours
Phil says:
but you would have to be a good student,listen carefully, obey honestly, work hard to please me
amy says:
i would
Phil says:
if it works out........ then you, when you decide, would give yourself to me rl
Phil says:
its a big decision
Phil says:
we would go slow for you
Phil says:
I am patient
amy says:
thankyou Phil
Phil says:
you think about it
Phil says:
write me
amy says:
i will
amy says:
an email or a written letter?
Phil says:
my eyes do not wander if you are honest
Phil says:
email for now
Phil says:
its fast
amy says:
yes Phil
Phil says:
but I do not share
amy says:
good!
Phil says:
do you understand that?
amy says:
yes i do, and i like it
Phil says:
okay, you get going
amy says:
thankyou
Phil says:
I'll write you later too
amy says:
i will speak with You again soon
amy says:
xoxo
Phil says:
I look forward to it
Phil says:
*kiss on her forehead*


and to think i now live in His home and see Him everyday.

i had the weirdest experience today...my first EVER sub space "hangover". i am used to feeling shaky and light headed for awhile after ive spaced but never have i woken up the next morning still feeling those sensations. last night was pretty intense granted - i even had blurred vision!, but i never expected to wake up feeling like i had been partying all night.
today Master gave me permission to go shopping with taylor, a girl who is fast becoming a very good friend, and He even told me to leave joshua so that they could have some "male bonding" in my absence. shopping with another girly girl is so much fun and we found ourselves oohing and ahhing over the same things a few times. i was given a 200 limit but i only spent $90 which impressed Master alot..especially because my purchase was His after shave and some shoes for joshua.
when i got home at lunch time both joshua and Master where asleep on the lounge so i took the time out to write home to everyone.
on saturday im going out with karisa and some other girls to the race course. we have permits to the members area and a womens only bar called the Diva Lounge. Master has chosen my outfit for me, a dress i bought from ebay not too long ago with a pretty white lacee bolero ive been dying to wear ever since Master gave it to me.
ok enough fashion!

Current Mood: content

i am settled, as a newly owned girl can be in her Masters house.
i've never seen a man so proud of his abode as my Master is, keenly looking over every little detail. He has, since my first visit, taken to rejuvinating His lawn which had succumbed to the summers heat and looked a little worse for wear.

i find myself wandering aimlessly around His house taking note of where He’d like me to put my things, then forgetting to put them there as something else catches my eye. i feel like a desperate housewife (only without the georgous figure) ready to spill the neighbourhood gossip to whomever it is that pops around for coffee first.
i'll show some pictures soonish (one of these days...), right now i have to go get into my nightie and brush my hair ready for His return…

Current Mood: satisfied

There are 5 days to go until i make the big move to Perth. Master wants to know how i am feeling right now and so i thought it would help to just get it all out on here as a ‘friends only’ post.
The anxiety levels are high. i can’t really believe this is happening to be honest. i’m excited, i’m afraid, i’m in love and and want it all.
i have been given a lot of support and encouragement from all of Yyou and i want to say how truly appreciated it is. i am going to Perth as me, Phils girl, and that is who i am going to be at all times.
i am handing Him amy and trust Him to make all the right decisions.
He will be in control of everything – from the play right down to the clothes i wear. This is the type of Ds relationship i have needed and i feel ready to submit 24/7 to this Man who i love so much. i have come to a point where i need nothing else in this life except Him and my son. Everything else seems trivial.
Phil needs undivided love, respect, attention and submission and i am the girl who will give that to Him. He needs to be needed and already i need him powerfully. i know i am always going to be content with Him and Him only and i am aware this is the most fundamental point in belonging to Him.
i want to cook for Him, dress for Him, make love to Him and submit to Him. No matter how demanding He is i want to strive to complete every single demand. i want to grow under His guidance.
i want to wake up next to Him every single day.
i want my son to look up to Him and learn from Him and be close to Him and know that is what a man is.
i feel like my journey to find my One is complete and now the journey as a submissive begins.

Current Mood: determined

i've been on somewhat of a high as of late. Ok, quite a large high and no matter what i do i dont seem to disperse my never ending energy. Except of course at work, where i could fall asleep where i stand most days. The Italian listens to me rave on and on i can almost see Him just watching me bounce of the walls and smiling....i'd love to know what He's thinking sometimes. "Maybe if I knock her head hard enough she will black black out for a few minutes rest" lol....or something along those lines.

Notes to self:

1. never make a bet with the Master
2. never make a bet with the Master on a soccer game
3. never doubt Italy
4. never make a bet with an Italian Master that involves soccer and italy.

Thankyou Socceroos i will be thinking of you when im paying what i owe dammit.

And its not money of course.

OH AND I ALMOST FORGOT

He has bought little J (and me ) a PUPPY!! It’s the cutest thing you have ever seen (maltese i think? not sure). His sisters dog had puppies and so we got the runt just for little J (and me…..hehehe). so “brandy” is waiting for us too.

1 WEEK TO GO!

Current Mood: energetic

Thankyou to everyone who supported me on the passing of my beloved grandmother.
A very special BIG thankyou to the beautiful Italian. Having you near reminds me that i am not alone, even after the two people who raised me have gone.
Poor gran had been very unwell the entire last week of may. i was informed on Tuesday, 30th of may that there was nothing anyone could do for her anymore. our last options lied with a specialist heart surgeon in adelaide, but on the Tuesday he returned his report to her local doctor who forwarded it to me, her power of attorney, which basically stated that he can't do anything else to help her, she is too far gone, too old, and he is so very sorry.
It was hard to take at first, i sort of felt like it was my duty to rally the troops around the fire and admit defeat. i spoke to gran Wednesday night and she told me, through a dementia haze, that she wouldnt quit fighting, which makes me want to burst into a shallow pool of tears....
Such a fighter...Always the same.
Thursday night at 10 pm i was called by the doctor. He was with gran and she was dying. A small fall from her chair had knocked her unconcious and her condition was rapidly deteriorating. He told me to pack a bag and come as soon as possible, she was on oxygen therapy but if she stopped breathing on her own there would be no form of recusitation in accordance with her living will.
i called the Italian, packed mine a joshuas things and organised a flight for the morning. Just before 12 the doctor called back to say gran had passed away.
Matt and i still took the first flight so we could be near her. i take comfort in the fact that she was a deeply spirtual woman who was only waiting for God to come and take her home. I will miss her far more than many miss their grandparents because to me she was a mother, friend and inspiration. In the eulogy I delivered on behalf of my family i said if i can only grow to be half the woman Eva Hardwick was, i will have done incredibly well.


ich liebe dich Gran, Ruhe in Frieden.

Nickname: babe, babes, baby, little one
Currently reading: this survey! and cooking sicilian
Currently listening to: matt on the phone
Currently thinking: Well now i'm thinking about what i am thinking about
Worst Habit: buying shoes
Best Habit: laughing with little J
Annoying Habit: my friends would say biting my bottom lip and flicking my teeth with my tounge
Hair Color: brown
Eye Color: blue/green
Skin Color: white / tanned
Height: 5'4
Favorite color: pink (red for shoes)
Favorite perfume: used to be Gucci ‘Rush’, but now it is Britney’s ‘Curious’
Favorite movie: the Shawshank Redemption
Favorite song: U2, One
Last real cry: Saturday morning.
What was the reason: overwhelmingly broken at His feet
Do drugs?: no
Every injured someone else?: yes, my best friend by accident
Every injure yourself?: yes
Contemplated Suicide?: yes
Attempted Suicide?: no
Sought Councelling?: yes
Been Hospitalized?: yes
Been in love?: YES right now
Had your heart broken?: Oh yes.
Broken someones heart?: yes, felt terrible….
Last movie seen: i watched Hitch last night
Last Song listened to: Linkin Park - Breaking the habit
Last DVD: Hitch
Last Kiss: real kiss, saturday (the Italian…sighs). quick kiss,
this morning (little J)
Last hug: this morning (little J)
Last person you touched: little J
Last person you swore at: my sister
Last person you cried in front of: the Italian
Last word you spoke: "Ok"
Last time you laughed: during a conversation with the Italian about 5 minutes ago
Last sport played: um, i watch football?

Current Mood: bored